[Sunday 8/21: gave a testimony with Nate about our experience in China]
originally I intended to read straight out from my saved drafts on tumblr, because everything seemed to make so much more sense in writing… but I realized that I couldn’t multi-task, to read and to up to the crowd in between… and the holy spirit just took over.
I don’t remember everything I said up there today, but I know that they were all along the same lines of what’s below, some more might have been added or taken away from the testimony on Sunday compared to what’s been written below.
So much has happened in China and there were endless new experiences and new love.
One of the many love He’s shown me is really how great He was and just realizing that even more by the moment humbled me everyday.
Each day God showed us more of His Love and the Father’s heart.
China… really is amazing. You can’t imagine how brillant the people really are and it’s sad that a great majority of them do not know Christ yet. when you meet them you see how much potential each individual has…
I honestly didn’t know what to expect during this trip, except that we were to bless the people with the truth and come back. but that’s not what happened.
Instead I felt we were more blessed, moved and changed, … impacted by: their devotion, their faith, their relationship with God, and their desperation for just His presence.
You realize more and more how much we take for granted our freedom to worship Him freely and carelessly, without having to worry so much of any persecutions.
but them? for the, the closer they draw nearer to God and the deeper their relationships grow with God, the more they are willing to risk and commit themselves entirely.
I asked myself, what risk do I take in seeking a relationship with him? what am I forced to give up to follow after Him? and none can compare to what they go through…
I’m not saying our faith is weak because we don’t give enough sacrifices because we still have His grace, but just that we’ve took for advantage our faith living too comfortably.
It’s amazing how they’ve been able to come to Christ in a nation where we’ve been arrested for trying to share the gospel, though their faith is so confined and restricted… by the grace of God they are still able to embrace His love, and truly understand what it is to live for God by faith. This just shows how BIG He is and how much He loves each and every one of us. His love is what they are all being filled with and for them, you can see that that’s more than enough.
Throughout the whole trip and even after I came back I’ve been continually redefining my faith and the relationship that I have with Him. and every time I am blown away by His unconditional love and never-ending grace, like… literally one day I would just sit and think of all that He’s done then think How much more He’s going to be doing, and then it just continues to fill my head then my heart starts pounding and I find myself breathless… I mean THAT’s how great He is and even greater!
In every DTR with God, at most times I find myself unworthy or incapable or even undeserving, yet still able to fully embrace myself as His daughter, His princess, His child;
Because as much as I find myself unworthy or incapable or even undeserving, lacking in so many ways, He’s also allowed me to find myself in many other places I never would have imagined being, if it wasn’t for His AMAZING Love and His grace, even now~ as an epic teacher sharing my testimony with you guys. And I believe every
Luke 18: 14
[…] For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.
